Its 2a.m. darkness and
Cobwebs fill my head.
What am i going to do?
I have nothing left here,
No hope, no dreams to hold,
Only pain and fear-like vampires
They feed and leave me empty.
Where did i go wrong?
Did i love too much-
Care too much?
Did i put to much
Of my damaged soul
Out there to be shattered?
All the things i used to
Cling to, have been taken.
What matters to me so much
Is a joke now to others.
Why am i here? Darkness,silence
Why don’t the ones
Who cause the pain hurt like i do?
I needed that sleep-
The alarm doesn’t care.
Another day in hell-black candles
Flickering, yet,Lost,waiting for the
Love i gave my life for over and over.
Just let me go,blow the candle out
Or make them feel the pain like i do.
beebeesworld 
Judy said,
April 28, 2014 @ 3:16 pm
Your words are so powerful! You convey your pain to others so well. All that pain you carry is unbearable and no one can imagine it. One day, you’ll see Andrew again. There is so much love in your heart – it cannot be extinguished.
beebeesworld said,
April 28, 2014 @ 10:15 pm
Of course Andrew’s loss is always on my mind, but there are other issues too- There doesnt seem to be the kind of caring and understanding I need in my family. Everyone has tier own issues, my dad is not doing well. To have the love I felt when I had Andrew, even when i had to ignore a lot of problems is something I cannot eve imagine. I write to get things off my mind, but this one was simply thatI couldn’t sleep, now Elisha is sick and I am afraid i am getting it to-strep or a throat virus. Take care and thank you for your support.
readinpleasure said,
April 29, 2014 @ 2:29 pm
Powerful and full of raw emotions! It is well! 🙂
beebeesworld said,
May 2, 2014 @ 1:25 pm
Thank you, readinpleasure. Sometimes writing about my troubles helps to put them in focus. beebee