Christmas Past

DSCN2231I remember those magical days-

children running in from the bus

to see what new presents

had suddenly appeared under the tree.

I remember the magic of lights-

the “oohs and ahhhs” as the switch came on.

The weeks of “what I want for Christmas”

coming from innocent souls.

Then the chorus of “and that’s all…”

followed by several more favorites.

Yesterday, my babies, my life-

The Joy on their faces, on my face as well.

Today, I lay here alone, a tree with no presents.

Sits in a “living room” no one plays in.

I pick up a sick grandchild from school,

Drive by a graveyard-when one of them lies.

I wonder, today, with life having little meaning,

how those days, when we were so poor,

when those “wants” really did magicially appear.

If it is worth it now, the memories, all I have.

My sick heart pounds, the hot tears roll,

down lonely cheeks as teens tell me

“I won’t be home after school, I have to hurry.”

There are dinner and parties, friends, life.

Please remember, children of today,

that life goes by so fast, that todays’ kids

are tomorrows adults, with kids of their own.

And we, who once were so needed and loved.

Have grown old as my babies grew up.

I put up a tree, as my youngest insisted.

But no joy of a new present  hiding  there today.

Just memories, the awareness of time rushing by…

Like the old Scrooge Tale, it is-

Christmas Past, Present, Future.

I must remember that life moves on, even if

it drags me kicking and screaming.

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9 Responses so far »

  1. 1

    You can drag me with you as we both go kicking and screaming…Love ya !

    • 5

      beebeesworld said,

      Thanks again for reading my articles. Christmas is within a few days of my birthday, and when my kids were young, it was such a happy time. Now , the sadness and stress has taken that away. You are very kind to read my long diatrobe! beebeesworld

  2. 6

    A well-written look at the past, my friend. I wish you a nice Christmas and all the best for the New Year xo

  3. 8

    journalplace said,

    Blessings to you. May the joy of the moment return to you the joy of memory.

  4. 9

    beebeesworld said,

    How kind, Thank you beebeesworld


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